James Hannaham 
God Says No [EPUB ebook] 

A Lambda Award Finalist: a black gay man struggles with his marriage, faith, and desires in this "tender, funny tour of a mind struggling to do the right thing" (Steve Martin).Gary Gray marries his first girlfriend, a fellow student from Central Florida Christian College who loves Disney World as much as he does. They are nineteen, God-fearing, and eager to start a family. But a week before their wedding Gary goes into a rest-stop bathroom and lets something happen.God Says No is his testimony-the story of a young black Christian struggling with desire and belief, with his love for his wife and his appetite for other men, told in a singular, emotional voice. Driven by desperation and religious visions, the path that Gary takes-from revival meetings to out life in Atlanta to a pray-away-the-gay ministry in Memphis, Tennessee-gives a riveting picture of how a life like his can be lived, and how it can’t.A Stonewall Book Award Pick 2010Finalist for the 2009 Lambda Literary Award for Gay Debut Fiction"A revelatory and sympathetic guide to a misunderstood world." -Steve Martin, author of Shopgirl and Born Standing Up