In Binge Crazy, therapist Natalie Gold discloses her lived experience to reveal how binge eating disorder and food addiction develops, how it impacts the individual and their loved ones, and the complex road to recovery. From a Toronto mental hospital to a talk show in London, England, she chronicles over 50 years of failure and success. Binge Crazy is really about relationships, especially the author’s love-hate affair with food and eating. “There was never enough, could never be enough food to satisfy what was wrong inside, ” says Gold. The author exposes aspects of her life that also reflect those of her clients and others who struggle.
Binge Crazy is not the standard “how to” book – but it is an example of what not to do. It is a daringly honest portrayal of what it’s like to be inside the head and heart of someone who suffers from out-of-control eating, and the zigzag recovery process. Binge Crazy formed the basis for Gold’s chapter on severe food addiction for the textbook, Processed Food Addiction, Foundations, Assessment and Recovery (Taylor & Francis), since she met all eleven substance use criteria in the definitive mental health reference, the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Fifth Edition, (APA, 2013).
Now a Registered Psychotherapist, Gold is an honors graduate of Ryerson University (Toronto), holds a graduate certificate in Addiction and Mental Health from Durham College (Oshawa), and a post-graduate certificate in Gestalt Therapy from the Gestalt Institute of Toronto. She is a member in good standing of the College of Registered Psychotherapists of Ontario (CRPO), the Ontario Association of Consultants, Counsellors, Psychometrists and Psychotherapists (OACCPP), the Canadian Association for Psychodynamic Therapy (CAPT), and the Association for the Advancement of Gestalt Therapy (AAGT), an international community. She can be reached at changehappens.ca.
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
INTRODUCTION
- Everybody’s Got a Story
- In My Life
CHAPTER 1: APPOINTMENT WITH GILDA
- Has Anyone Got a Chair?
- The Greatest Role of My Life
- I Am Not the Walrus, or Am I?
CHAPTER 2: THE GIBBLE-GABBLE
- Dealing with Crazy
- The Unrelenting Tenth Degree
CHAPTER 3: ALL IN THE FAMILY
- Shirley
- Robert/Bob
- Shirley and Bob
- Rosemarie
- Me
- My Sister
- The Shadow
CHAPTER 4: OPENING NIGHT
- Noelle
- Brown Camps
CHAPTER 5: CONNECTS AND DISCONNECTS
- The Source
- The System
- The Great Pretender
- Mealtime at Our House
- Gabby Girdle Gold
- Splits
CHAPTER 6: EARLY IN THE NINTH
- A Teensy Bit about the Clarke Institute of Psychiatry
- The Original April Fool
- Jagged Little Pills
- Food, Glorious Food
- Gilda’s First Take
CHAPTER 7: O-BLAH-DEE-O-BLAH-DAH
- Location, Location, Location
- May I Help You Out?
- Ms. Personality
- Dotter
CHAPTER 8: MEASURING THE MARIGOLDS
- Family Therapy
- Drugged Tests, Part 1
- Alarming
- Drugged Tests, Part 2
- Bob and Shirley at the Clarke, Take 1
CHAPTER 9: THE UNWINDING
- Who Are You?
- Not a Rape
- Basement Daze
CHAPTER 10: CHEZ CLARKE
- On the Move
- Guitar
- Other Peeps
- Remnants
- Sex Ed
- Bob and Shirley at the Clarke, Take 2
CHAPTER 11: PLAN B
- Cold Fish and Chocolate
- Nellie and the Stain
- Insincerity Times Two
- Don’t Ask, Never Tell
CHAPTER 12: REALITY ORIENTATION
- Don’t Wear Red
- Shift that Paradigm
- Potential
- Whose Reality?
- External Validity
- Mudville
- Future Tense
- A Mind of My Own
CHAPTER 13: LEAVINGS
- Falling Through
- You Can Go Home Again, but …
- Toronto-Bound
CHAPTER 14: OUTPATIENT
- Out of the Frying Pan
- Into the Fire
- Farewell Gilda, Hello Jack
CHAPTER 15: UP TO THE BOTTOM
- Yorkville Revisited
- Sitcom Anyone?
- London Revisited
- Fat Acceptance
- The Parking Lot
- Does It Look like a Duck?
CHAPTER 16: A NEW DIRECTION
- The Turning Point
- Goal Weight at Last
- The Myth of Thin
- Fathead
- Food First
- The Power to Choose
- Relapse
- Archeology
- Here’s the Thing
APPENDIX: UNDERLYING TRIGGER ISSUES
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
BIBLIOGRAPHY
ENDNOTES
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Author and psychotherapist Natalie Gold lost her balance on the precarious diet-binge roller-coaster, with its extreme weight fluctuations, ultimate obesity, low self-esteem, and dishonest relationships. Ten months in a Toronto mental hospital put her back on her feet. But recovery from food addiction and the painstaking process of forming new relationships with food, eating, herself (and everyone else) began when she got off sugar and white flour, thanks to a 12-step program. She lost weight, and gained clarity. But relapse led to Gestalt Therapy, a holistic and experiential treatment mode. A career as a singer preceded 25 years as a qualitative research consultant, mainly for the federal government. She then switched direction and acquired nine years of education and training to be a Gestalt therapist. She holds an honors B.A. in psychology, a Grad Certificate in Addictions and Mental Health, and a Post-Grad Certificate in Gestalt Therapy. In private practice since 2007, Natalie helps clients with disordered eating issues, especially the underlying anxiety and trauma. She has run groups and workshops in Toronto since 2002. BINGE CRAZY is her first book, and the basis for her chapter on severe food addiction in the Taylor & Francis textbook, ‘Processed Food Addiction, Foundations, Assessment and Recovery, ‘ since she met all eleven substance use criteria in the definitive mental health reference, the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition, APA, 2013). Reach her at changehappens.ca.