Foreword, Catherine Wessinger

1 Purpose of This Autobiography

2 Bonnie Clark

3 The Haldeman Family

4 Vernon Howell Becomes a Branch Davidian

5 Bonnie Haldeman Becomes a Branch Davidian

6 David Koresh’s Shootout with George Roden at Mount Carmel

7 Resettling at Mount Carmel

8 Bonnie and Roy Leave Mount Carmel

9 Visits Back and Forth with Folks at Mount Carmel

10 The ATF Raid, February 28, 1993

11 The Siege

12 The Fire, April 19, 1993

13 1994 Criminal Trial

14 2000 Civil Trial

15 Life after the Fire

16 Going Back to Mount Carmel

17 Remembering the People and Lifestyle at Mount Carmel

18 Remembering the Children

19 Remembering David

Appendix: Poems by David Koresh

Works Cited

Notes

Bonnie Haldeman was the mother of David Koresh and a surviving Branch Davidian. She lived, traveled, and worked with the Branch Davidians in Texas, California, and Hawaii from 1985 until 1991.Catherine Wessinger (Ph.D. University of Iowa) is the Rev. H. James Yamauchi, S.J. Professor in Arts and Sciences, and she is Professor of the History of Religions in the Religious Studies Department, Loyola University, New Orleans. She is the author of How the Millennium Comes Violently: From Jonestown to Heaven’s Gate, editor of Millennialism, Persecution and Violence: Historical Cases, and co-general editor of Nova Religio: The Journal of Alternative and Emergent Religions.