Playboy and I were coincidentally born in 1954. Its centerfolds dogged me into my adulthood adding color to an already quirky, dysfunctional, and, at times, violent life. And while I was taught antiquated Victorian principles, the men around me embraced Hugh Heffner’s new sexual revolution and his philosophy designating women as playthings for their own entertainment. On the one hand, I was taught to respect, and do, a man’s bidding, and, to never question his authority. On the other hand, no one taught me the facts of life or that I even had value. This was a recipe for a lifetime of pain and confusion. However, somethingalways miraculously intervened and eventually blessed me with wisdom, strength, and the ability to forgive those who were victims in their own right.This is a brutally honest story of rape, abuse, and domestic violence but it is just as brutally honest about a unique experientialrelationship with God. Hold on tightly. This is a roller-coaster read!
Daftar Isi
Preface
Introduction
BOOK ONE: The Early Years
One: The Imperfect Conditioning of a Child and How She Met an Angel
Two: Let the Circus Begin, James Bond and Hefner, a Perfect Cocktail
Three: Living like Punch and Judy
Four: Teacher’s Pet, Puppy Love and Jesus in my Heart
Five: Teacher’s Cast-Away
Six: A Ham, A Near Death Experience and the Last Attempt
BOOK TWO: The Stumbling Years
Seven: As the Clay is in the Potter’s Hand
Eight: Like a Greek Christmas Tree.
Nine: You’re Just a Girl
Ten: God’s Nautical Boot Camp
Eleven: Land of Milk and Honey and A Brothel’s Madame in the Bathroom
Twelve: What Do You Mean I Can’t be a Nun?
Thirteen: A Different Kind of Nun
BOOK THREE: The Holy Years
Fourteen: The Prophet and His Jezebel
Fifteen: The Children, The Children, The Children
Sixteen: Pap, Don’t Give Any More Money
BOOK FOUR: The Unsettled Years
Seventeen: Just Call me Lazarus
Eighteen: Match-Maker Pap and Here Come da Judge
Nineteen: Trouble in Paradise
BOOK FIVE: The Rocky Years
Twenty: Who’s in Charge? The Playboy or the Prophet?
Twenty-One: A Tear in the Curtain of Love
Twenty-Two: Both Playboy and the Prophet Win
Twenty-Three: A Woman Scorned
Twenty-Four: Graduating to Speaking with Angels
Twenty-Five: Damsel in Distress in Paradise
BOOK SIX: The Later Years
Twenty-Six: Almost Twenty Years with the Bearded One and Living Like Job
Twenty-Seven: A Great Earthquake
Twenty-Eight: The Fall of the Lion
Twenty-Nine: From Jezebel to Angel
Thirty: God Always gets the Last Word
Epilogue: Damsels in Distress: Depression
About the Author
Books Forthcoming by the Author
Tentang Penulis
Tina Assanti immigrated with her extended patriarchal family to Canada in the 1950’s. She applied to be a nun at the age of twenty-two but was told the confines of the church would not suit her personality. In looking back, Tina agrees. They were absolutely right.