Playboy and I were coincidentally born in 1954. Its centerfolds dogged me into my adulthood adding color to an already quirky, dysfunctional, and, at times, violent life. And while I was taught antiquated Victorian principles, the men around me embraced Hugh Heffner’s new sexual revolution and his philosophy designating women as playthings for their own entertainment. On the one hand, I was taught to respect, and do, a man’s bidding, and, to never question his authority. On the other hand, no one taught me the facts of life or that I even had value. This was a recipe for a lifetime of pain and confusion. However, somethingalways miraculously intervened and eventually blessed me with wisdom, strength, and the ability to forgive those who were victims in their own right.This is a brutally honest story of rape, abuse, and domestic violence but it is just as brutally honest about a unique experientialrelationship with God. Hold on tightly. This is a roller-coaster read!
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Preface
Introduction
BOOK ONE: The Early Years
One: The Imperfect Conditioning of a Child and How She Met an Angel
Two: Let the Circus Begin, James Bond and Hefner, a Perfect Cocktail
Three: Living like Punch and Judy
Four: Teacher’s Pet, Puppy Love and Jesus in my Heart
Five: Teacher’s Cast-Away
Six: A Ham, A Near Death Experience and the Last Attempt
BOOK TWO: The Stumbling Years
Seven: As the Clay is in the Potter’s Hand
Eight: Like a Greek Christmas Tree.
Nine: You’re Just a Girl
Ten: God’s Nautical Boot Camp
Eleven: Land of Milk and Honey and A Brothel’s Madame in the Bathroom
Twelve: What Do You Mean I Can’t be a Nun?
Thirteen: A Different Kind of Nun
BOOK THREE: The Holy Years
Fourteen: The Prophet and His Jezebel
Fifteen: The Children, The Children, The Children
Sixteen: Pap, Don’t Give Any More Money
BOOK FOUR: The Unsettled Years
Seventeen: Just Call me Lazarus
Eighteen: Match-Maker Pap and Here Come da Judge
Nineteen: Trouble in Paradise
BOOK FIVE: The Rocky Years
Twenty: Who’s in Charge? The Playboy or the Prophet?
Twenty-One: A Tear in the Curtain of Love
Twenty-Two: Both Playboy and the Prophet Win
Twenty-Three: A Woman Scorned
Twenty-Four: Graduating to Speaking with Angels
Twenty-Five: Damsel in Distress in Paradise
BOOK SIX: The Later Years
Twenty-Six: Almost Twenty Years with the Bearded One and Living Like Job
Twenty-Seven: A Great Earthquake
Twenty-Eight: The Fall of the Lion
Twenty-Nine: From Jezebel to Angel
Thirty: God Always gets the Last Word
Epilogue: Damsels in Distress: Depression
About the Author
Books Forthcoming by the Author
Giới thiệu về tác giả
Tina Assanti immigrated with her extended patriarchal family to Canada in the 1950’s. She applied to be a nun at the age of twenty-two but was told the confines of the church would not suit her personality. In looking back, Tina agrees. They were absolutely right.